where the story ends

Ramblings of a cereal guy who cant fall asleep.
posted on Monday, November 28, 2011 at 3:24 AM | 0 cmnt/s

Due to cheryl and her speed of chionging ring, I ended up coupling germaine back for the audi ring. Though it isnt 100% a happy thing.

Sometimes I wonder if its really just me being too soft-hearted. Despite all the hurt she's given me, I still give her chances time and again. I still fall back in love with her time and again. Then the same old things happen again. It feels like an endless cycle. The relationship we had, it's probably one where we have done the least things together, other than just audiing, and that one time where we finally met (that was also more than a year after our relationship ended). Yet it's the one which brings back the most memories.

As she has said it before, 'i may not accept you now, but who knows about the future?' Well, I doubt we can ever get back to that relationship, and I doubt she will have those feelings she used to have again.

My only wish now? Very simple: hoping that I will not be taken for granted again.

Rhythmize and Symphonize. The two may be together again, but everything's different now.

Friday.
posted on Saturday, November 19, 2011 at 12:49 AM | 0 cmnt/s

No idea what to title this post, since it's so mixed with many things.

Let's see.... the day started bad, waking up rather late, and having to cab in the progress. Suay me, got on to a cab with a very fucked up cabbie who drove me to amk (Nanyang Poly) when i wanted to go to school (Ngee Ann Poly). Well many cabbies get mixed up, but that particular one was rather fucked up.

... And so I reached school close to 5. Carrer Fair, nothing much. Well, I did see Ms Izah and some of the other teachers over at RCYPS though. Then the performance thingy. Well, sat in for a bit, trolled around with Joel (whom I have not seen for an entire semester, and who did most of the trolling anyway) till a girl in front of me had to remind us to tone down in a rather bitchy manner.

And so it just so happened that Janice was on the way to Ian's condo for his bbq celebration, and as such, we went down together....

.... only to meet the whole group of guys along the way. LOLOLOL.

Reached his place, the usual bbq stuffs, and the usual tio gan by the security there. Imo, his condo's security are the most particular about rules and what not, in comparison to the other condos which I have visited.

.... and off to his house to keep things, lepak, and here I am, home.

That kinda sums the day up. Though I was not really feeling happy the whole day though.

At times I feel that everyone is just being nice and treating me well because I am a sort of an 'insurance policy', and when I'm not needed I am just forgotten. Yes, even Cheryl gives me this feeling at times. But heck, my personality is not very nice, to put it nicely, and it is Ian's birthday celebration, after all. What can I whine about? Ah wells.

To Ian: Even if I weren't that enthu as opposed to what I would be, still, A very happy 20th to you, and may the next year be a smooth-sailing and happy one for you. (:

How's It Been.
posted on Wednesday, November 16, 2011 at 10:51 PM | 0 cmnt/s

Been a while since I last blogged. And it's been a while since I last went out with Li Ser too.

... well, I would'nt even get the chance to do so if Cher did not ask me out for pool today. So the plan was to play pool, and I recommended them Pomo's Kpool. Problem is, I actually forgot that it's KPool, and they're very strict about leaving ICs and not other forms of identification, as well as the fact that Cher has lost her wallet.

So in the end, we went back to the place where she often brings us to play, and played. Most of the time was just spent on the two ladies playing against me, for rather obvious reasons. Well, at least everyone else had fun, that's all that matters.

From there on, it was just buying some gongcha, then going off first because they had to do something which would be rather inconvenient for me to be around with. So ah well. In the end, I was supposed to meet up with saddy and yongwei for dinner, but because the latter had to go home, so instead it was going over to my cousin's to print my notes for tmr's lectures.

As for the events which happened today... It kinda makes me wonder, most of the time, I am always the 3rd person who joins in, when the other two peeps have each other as company. Kinda sad, but what can I do?

That very aweful feeling, for some unknown reason, is back again.

Untitled.
posted on Friday, November 4, 2011 at 1:47 AM | 0 cmnt/s

I'm starting to feel the retribution for how i treated you in the past.

Yes it sucks, but i can only suck thumb.

November.
posted on Thursday, November 3, 2011 at 12:58 AM | 0 cmnt/s

Current activity: lying on bed, blogging.

Yes, still failing to fall asleep and i have 9am classes tmr. Doesnt help that i have a super itchy throat, and am still feeling some pain from a newly emerged wisdom tooth.

Food for thought: what if you really value a particular friend as important and special to you, yet there's close to no way to prove it through your actions?

Goodnight.
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