where the story ends

Grave Consequences
posted on Sunday, February 28, 2010 at 3:02 PM | 0 cmnt/s

Hi guys.

These few days is just... rollercoaster i guess. For one moment im very hyper and noisy, and the next moment, something happens and i just turn emo. Im not surprised if u all were to say i am pmsing. But whatever.

Anyway, yesterday was ben's 'farewell' steamboat before he goes into tekong. That steamboat was also the first time in quite a long while that i have seen the guys (and 1 crazy girl) alr, but to be honest, the feeling's lost alr. In the past i used to be the one that apparently lead everything (and created the most trouble), now its.. meh.
Other than ben (and probably teckhwee), i dont seem to have any bond with any of them now, us being so busy and everything.

Throughout the many times that I was left alone, i just had to think through my life. How pathethic is its state now? What else can i do to salvage things? I cant seem to find any answers, even if there were so many hints ard me.

Then after the steamboat, we ended up tonning at chambers. Meh, usual thing, except, i made the biggest mistake ever. Flaring up at the person i love. Right now, i dont really dare to talk to her anymore, feeling very guilty, yet feelings for her are still strong. But at our current situation...

Im sorry.
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