where the story ends

posted on Sunday, April 19, 2009 at 2:32 AM | 0 cmnt/s

Yes i know, this time round, im the one that screwed everything.
Blurted out ur darkest secret, making u sound very cheap in the process.
Because of this stupid, 'never think before doing' action,
the slimmest chances, if there were any to start with, of us getting together again just vanished.

Now, with wad i did, nothing i can do will make u forgive me anymore.
But i really feel very bad about this...
Oh well, never mind, this is retribution for ven anyways.
Given my sucky attitude and all that, this is bound to happen also.
Im really stupid, isnt it?

Right now, u may just be doing sth that i may not even know.
While im here, blogging, with nobody to talk to.
U may ask, 'didnt u say they were very irritating?'
But right now... Im just alone.

U may see how i dont talk to u as me not being bothered about u anymore.
No, u're wrong.
Fact is, i dun dare to face u, after wad i did.
I really wanna be together with u again,
but with wad i did... I dun even dare to face u.

Earlier, i blog-hopped... Went to elicia's blog, saw her post... Well it made me think back bout everything. Throughout the 3years...
And i guess, i've come up to this conclusion.
'Ven isnt fit to have a girlfriend.'
Why should he have one, when he's just an insensitive bastard, that blurts out people's darkest secrets, doesnt make people happy, secure, etc, and just makes ppl hate him instead. Audi rings... Wad are they? Nice deco? True... But where's the worth of the ring? Tagging 78760 hearts to get a white pearl ring? Wtf are u thinking ven. Ur ign really suits u u know? -顶尖失败者, thats u- number one failure.

But even though i know my frens will be around to make sure i get through this 'episode'... Will they know how painful it is? Especially when u screwed up ur own chances? I want u back, but i guess now, i cant have u back...

Just wonder how am i goin to go to sch with a fresh start on monday man. Somebody please kill me. :(

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